Sunday scores and doors

Found these vintage Baribocraft Canada solid wood bowls on my Sunday afternoon treasure hunt to Value Village.  They were a steal at $4.99 for a set of 7!

Spent the rest of the afternoon popping into open houses with S and S, dreaming of my own River Heights stunner!  Shot some fab doors on the way...

Told S I would feature her very own front door!

Hope your week is going well!

Written with love,
Lenore

Into the Deep

 

I’m taking part in Momalom’s Five for Ten Challenge (although a little late in the game!).  Today’s theme is lust.

What do you lust for?

Is it sexual?  It is material (hello gorgeous shoes!)?  It is time just for yourself?  Or on the flip side, time with someone else?

The thing I lust over is that which I am most afraid.  Depth.  Connection.  Vulnerability.

I long to know you.  To have deep, layered conversations about the meaning of life, rather than the weather.  I suck at idle chit chat.  I’m terrible in group settings.  I flail without the one on one.

But I often stay silent, for fear of the possibility of rejection or perhaps…raw emotion.  I want it and I push it away.  I crave it and I despise it.

Because it commits you.  Once you are in, you’re in.  You have it from someone else and you have to show and tell and share in return.

J has started to crack the surface.  I am learning to trust.  I am starting to share.  But the fear lingers.

Why?  Many of us have loved and lost.  From friends to lovers to broken families.  Some seem to pick up the pieces and put it all together so easily.  Others build shields and kneepads and retaining walls around their hearts.

Every day I go deeper.  Age brings confidence, which brings less fear.  One day I will get there.

What do you lust for?

Written with love,
Lenore

Heartbreak...

I love my dog.  I love my dog.  I want to kill my dog.  I love my dog.  Arrrrggghhh!!

When was the last time you had your patience tested?

Written with love,
Lenore